I miss the day you added me on bbm and you treated me like you've known me since forever. I miss those times when we used to be like best friends. I miss our first hang out at Mid Valley when you wanted to sit beside me during the movies. I miss the time when you cuddled with me in the movies because I was freezing. I miss the time when you rested on my shoulder because you were tired. I miss texting you. I miss calling you at late nights. I miss laughing with you. I miss joking around with you. I miss sharing Starbucks with you. I miss the moment when you asked me to be your girlfriend. I miss playing truth or dare with you. I miss the time when you gave me your varsity. I miss you singing to me when I'm not okay. I miss your sweet talks. I miss you talking about Alex Turner. I miss knowing you were always by my side. I miss you being concern about me. I miss you wondering what I'm doing every moment, every second of every day. I just, I miss everything about you. But I guess what I miss most of all is just that, I miss us. Unfortunately, I cant do anything about it. There's nothing I can do about it. Nothing can change what is done. Everything has changed, It already happened. Its all over. Now that's left are just memories. Sweet memories that can never leave my mind and will never be forgotten. Memories that can never repeat. Ever again. Dear you, where ever you are, if you happen to ever read this, I just want you to know that, I really truly honestly completely miss you. I truly really do. I guess even after all these years, it's still you. Even after these past few years, even after all those guys and all the relationship and heartbreaks, it's still going to be you. The one that I truly love. The one that can make me smile even with just the thoughts of you. I'm not lying. Why would I? Play around with my own heart? And brag about someone, if it's not because I'm in love with him, right? Yeah, I know. Maybe, just maybe you've moved on. Maybe you've completely forgotten about me and everything about us. Maybe you just dont care and give a damn anymore. But, I know I still do. I really care about you and if I ever have the chance to undo what I did. Of course, without any doubt, I would. I would, I would, I would. I really would. I was being very egoistic and damn stupid for letting you go and I am so sorry for breaking your heart. But you know what? You're not the only one who was hurt. I am too. Was and still very is. I regret what I've done to you. I really really really really really regret it. I really want to correct my mistakes, but when I tried, it's already too late. But eventhough we're not together anymore, please just remember that I still care about you a lot. And I am always here if you ever need someone to talk to or even a shoulder to cry on. I'm always here for you. Even if you dont see me as your girl anymore, at least take me as a friend. That'd be nice too. Hope to hear from you soon. Just, remember that, I promised to be your guardian angel right? Well okay, I think that's all for now. Take the greatest care of yourself wherever you are okay? Good luck in everything that you're going to face and just keep this in your heart, that I will never ever ever forget about us.
You know who you are.
Much love,
Nina Nurkamilia Eisya Ariff